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Tuesday, December 01, 2015 | 5:21 PM | 0 commentsHello!
Oh wow, the last entry I wrote is December 2013, that is 2 years ago. If not for Facebook reminding me on the entry I wrote about how I brought Baby my bunny home (she's 4 years old now!) I wouldn't have peeked a look into my blog.
So hello, you, if you happen to pass by!
A little update about how Jeslene is now.
First and foremost, I am married now. I married the man I met 6 years ago this May 2015, and this is probably the biggest change in my life so far. I no longer put 'Single' in any sorts of questionnaire or forms I have to fill. This feeling is rather queer i suppose!
THe last time I mentioned about a job was Art related. I was starting out a brand new job after a bad ending in the firm I was previously in. Well, I have left that job as well, and I am now in the IT industry, handling matters of 35 team members, holding this job for nearly 3 years now.
Whenever I come back to update this blog, I see and read about my old self. I surprise myself sometimes with how the old me thinks. Its like a time capsule, a little snippet of what a younger Jeslene could have been through and could be thinking.
In year 2012, the last entry before this.
I told myself, I want to travel more, I want to be someone everyone loves, I want to be someone different from who I was in 2012 - irritating and full of childish temper.
Now in 2015, December.
I feel like I did it.
I feel loved, Im mostly happy, contented. I count my blessings a lot. I am a lot more positive, and I hope I will inspire more people to believe in themselves.
I am also a lot more healthier now, in the sense of lifestyle. I picked up the habit to work out every week in the gym because I was sick of being sickly all the time. (but erh... actually im still recovering from a cold now)
i picked up Yoga, and now Im attending Zumba classes, which I kept repeating - this is a whole new kind of tired man.
But I love it.
I too, lost a friend this year. She was pretty close to my heart, in all honesty. When I was about to get married, it seemed like it faded off, even if I tried talking to her.
It just distanced naturally. I think back often and get upset sometimes. What possibly happened? Have I done anything wrong?
But I also learn that sometimes... its not meant to be. Whatever happened must happen. For the good, for the bad, I don't know. But I get stronger, and I get better. Isn't that so?
Starting this new job also gained me alot more new friends. I gained Lynette and Linda. Nothing gets better than this.
I may be married, but I dont see my husband as often. Perhaps its the pure sense of security that we are bound together by marriage. I actually see him only once a week very much all the time. We try to spend more time together by travelling though. We make up for the lost time. Reading back, the 2-3times a week was a luxury. All the more to treasure this relationship.
In the future, once again, I want to be stronger. I want to keep this positive eneergy, I want to be a better person to everyone. I want to smile at all hurdles to jump over (this sounds like an idiot but its okay la.) Be more meticulous, and definitely, be more forgiving.
Give yourself a hug :)
And hello, you, future me. When you finally remember this blog once again, and read back. :)
Before... and soon after.
Thursday, December 27, 2012 | 1:22 PM | 0 commentsIt's a new phrase in life right now.
After leaving all unwanted emotions behind, I cant help but believe in this "When you think positive, positive things will come to you."
Sure, it sounds dumb. I mean, how do you go on and believe such a saying will change your life?
But it doesn't change your life, directly. It changes your attitude towards life, and from there changes everything else. I've been sharing this simple thinking with everyone I know. And I hope it helps them too.
Right now, I'm full of energy everyday.
My new job rewards me with a new insight to what I thought I lost interest in - art.
I don't feel tired, or tied down in the very least.
Handling emotions is so much more easier now, I feel new haha.
Now, on and forward!
Year-end is approaching! 2012 is coming to an end and when I look back, there were so many things and people I lost, or lost me. But strangely, I became a lot more closer to people who I thought I lost earlier. Emotions got jerky and here I am, with rekindled feelings.
Honestly, every year end I write the same thing - losing and gaining.
I thought I lost it, but no, I gained more than I lost.
2012 - my biggest enemy seems to be 'assumptions'.
I am never the person who likes to be maligned; well who does anyway? The old me would probably get very upset and try all sorts of ways to speak up for myself. But in the end, when you get fixed onto the table by someone else's opinions, and whatever you say or think doesn't matter, because you are not them.
I've always thought that, by throwing my naked feelings on the table for all to see on the very first trust I give, is the honesty I offer with both hands. Just so that people will not assume anything about me, especially when no one really cares if stuff are factual or fictional. At least I make my stand, y'know? But not anymore.
But I have to say this: I truly, honestly enjoyed the process. I know certain feelings are real and of true concern, and I hope that is mutual, somehow. Memories it will stay.
2012 - My biggest gain.
All thanks to positivity (no really!) I've changed so much, even the closest to me couldn't believe it. This is probably my greatest gain. No more negativity, no more childish tantrums.
I can do it, now I say.
I won't let anything bad bother me.
Since I switched jobs, I have lesser time to spend with my family and my boyfriend.
Both both sides understood and accepted it unconditionally.
I'm truly grateful for that.
Especially the Boyfriend. We've been trying so hard to squeeze time out for each other even before the job switch. We meet maybe 4 hours a day, 2-3days a week. That doesn't even make a full day in a week?
Now, its even more hectic. I see him 3 hours a day, 2-3days a week. And if his off days doesn't fall on Sunday, which is my only day of rest, we survive on 9 hours of meeting up a week. Days like these are so so hard for us but we are thriving on.
I think we are actually happier now, because we treasure our time together so much, there isn't much room for arguments. All we want is to use the time in quality.
2013 - So much more to come
So, we didn't die on the initial day of 2012.12.21. (I was working when it started to pour, and the first thing that came to my mind was Oh is it gonna get flooded and I'll be swept away haha)
There are so much more in my plans.
My marriage, my very own home, my furkids growing up, perhaps a few more overseas trips.
I wish for my family to be in great health.
I want to know more people.
Widen my view in arts and the world.
I want to be useful, and most importantly... I want to be someone everyone would love to be with.
I want to look back at this entry and think: I've got all these.
:) Cherish the last few days of 2012, and have a great 2013 ahead all!
Tuesday, August 14, 2012 | 12:04 PM | 0 commentsCan you believe its August already? Times flies so quickly I can't even catch its tail!
Its now 4 months to the rumoured 'world's end'. Have you thought of what to do before that? Haha, actually I wonder how many people actually believes AND will spend all their savings before the end.
Life has been merciful on me.
Other than occasional hiccups, and BF's grandfather hospitalized, I'm pretty good.
I wish I have more strength in handling things though.
I'm losing patience with some people. Well, if you expect us to help you, at least be gracious? Sure, we volunteered to, because I cannot stand the fact that men cannot really handle the administrative issues.
So I took over.
And then... Well, let's just say you didn't give us a peace of mind huh.
And ended up pushing the blame to us when changes affected us.
Just... stop lining your wet blankets out for all to see.
Just stop involving us.
There are so many things we know and heard. We just didn't make it a shout out to ruin it further.
I will thank you for that.
I am a protective person by nature, to all my friends and loved ones.
Anyway! Brighter side of life: its our 41st today!
Made me realise wow, its almost 3 and a half years.
May it go on, and on and on.
Monday, June 25, 2012 | 11:10 PM | 0 comments好多时候，我很想就那么坐在床上，听着自己最爱听的情歌，安安静静的让眼泪决题。