BUAAAAAAH!

Long time no update lol.
I seriously don't have the drive to update these days, kill me.
But when I have events, I'll definitely update - thats why I'm here nao!


All about Christmas 2010 =D







Made these lil ribbon hair ties for my girls as presents.
Yup hand sewn, just hope they like them <3


Woke early in the morning to bake this rainbow cake with leaking.
Its pretty yeah?

But first of all, tong ran away from it (plastercine lookie alike, so she says)

Secondly, everyone said it looks artificial.

I swear it tastes good.


Having steamboat dinner <3 <
Lol.
Picture taking time!

I don't care what anyone says: NO ONE LOOKS FAT HERE.

I insist.



Shaking picture taken by Tong.
I was telling mum we have no creative poses.
FOL.


We were playing with random poses when tong told me to do a dulan pose.
And I did.

But she didn't.

Fml.



Look damn shagged here.
But well, my hair colour's nice.



I did not - i repeat- I DID NOT put the whipped cream.
Leaking and Cheryl went mad with it.
They emptied a whole bottle of cream over it.

Can't believe it man.




Kueh lapis LOL.



Oh btw that was christmas eve.


On christmas day, BF and I spent quite sometime outside looking for shrimps and etc.
I was terribly sick with flu so BF have to keep 3 eyes on me.
Yeah, like literally.

We got home after and cuddled the rest of the day away.


And oh staring at his shrimps make me sleepy.
I fell asleep once look at them.


My UFO catches at his place.
He was on the phone and I just arranged them on him.
He was trying hard not to laugh lol.




Cuddled the night away and on cab I go hooooooome.

This year's Christmas was simple and sweet.
Though the crowd was lesser than last Christmas, when Bestie was home and 4 other people could make it, but it was wonderful.

I'm thankful!
For everybody, and every little thing in my life.

The year is coming to an end, and this year, to me is a below average year.

First and foremost, I was jobless till Feb.

I knew my family and bf were disappointed with me and all.
But then I went on to find a job, in a sector I'm not familiar with.

Insurance!
I'm a PA for 2 bosses who I have came to love =)
They are terrific and inspirational figures, and I really wanna learn from how they communicate.


Friends,
I lose a few friends each year,
but I gain new friends too.
No differences for this year.
I truly know who are those who are willing to run across the seas to be by me.

And yes I'm very very glad for them.


Family wise, it felt like I've gained a family member - my bf.
He's no longer just my lover, he's my family & my best friend.
2010 was terrible for us. We had our first ever major break-up-possible fight.

We were at each other's necks, honestly.

But without those fights, there wouldn't be us right now.


Don't be sad because they're over, but be happy because they happened.


And right now, I know my 2011 is going to be fabulous.

I want to be stronger, I don't want to be the naggy & ever-so-suspicious lady.
I want to be more sociable than I already am. Its better more friends than enemies.
I want to be more understanding and more patient. To not only BF, but everyone.




Camwhore pictures for the last of 2010!

May I be stronger, better and prettier in 2011 LOL.

Sometimes I think I'm really intelligent,

Sometimes I think actually I'm clever, just silly.

Now I think I'm just well, silly + clumsy.

On my way to work this morning, I tripped over an uneven pathway (lifted by tree roots)
I fell sideways and landed on the left side of my body.

Now I have scrapped left knee, a blue black on my butt,
and very very weirdly, my right ankle swelled up again.

Its an old injury but well, I guess it wants to take part in the fall even though I fell on my left.





Jes, you are SO SO clumsy.

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

　　朋友都劝我不要不要
　　不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑

　　但是做人已经那么累
　　假惺惺的想要逃

　　在爱里连真心都不能给
　　这才真的真正的可笑

　　爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
　　太容易让自己沉沦
　　太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕

　　我太笨 明知道你是错的人
　　明知道这不是缘分
　　但是我还奋不顾身

　　但我相信有点可能
　　可能 在爱里面这样算笨
　　可能 永远没有所谓永恒
　　但是我 不愿放弃这里面一点点可能

　　宁愿笨也不想要悔恨





--


爱一个人

就是要卸下所有武装


尽管你知道 没有任何能防御的外壳

尽管你知道 这条路上难免会遇到袭击


但却宁可坦荡荡

面对着 所有一切的喜怒哀乐

受了点伤 算得了什么

Yes yes I'm a slut and you're a dimwitted human.

Click for a larger picture.


As you all can see,
my friend's facebook account was hacked.

I realised it when this fellow came and fb chat me,
honestly I don't have much connections with this friend of mine,
we happened to be acquaintances, and were friendly with each other.
So when he talked to me, I was a lil surprised.

But I thought he had some wedding news to share as he got engaged earlier,
so I replied.

The conversation started all right,
but it got obvious that he was hacked.

Here's the full conversation:

[Supposed Friend]
7:37pm
hi

[Me]
7:37pm
hi

[Supposed Friend]
7:38pm
sick?

[Me]
7:38pm
a lil =)=) (My facebook status was "Ohai, running a fever")

[Supposed Friend]
7:38pm
ganna fucked too much, isit?

(What is ganna? Not Kenna meh? fail max)

[Me]
7:38pm
Haha
u got hacked is it

[Supposed Friend]
7:39pm
its me

[Me]
7:39pm
Nope
Cause he would nv ever talk to me like tt

[Supposed Friend]
7:39pm
can i fuck u in ur tight little ass?

[Me]
7:39pm
You're damn funny
if u wanna impersonate him

[Supposed Friend]
7:40pm
or u can blow my dick?

[Me]
7:40pm
u should at least make sure u know how he is like

[Supposed Friend]
7:40pm
yah, i am fondling my dick while talking to u now

[Me]
7:40pm
Dun try and be someone u can never be, cb
how pathetic

[Supposed Friend]
7:40pm
u slut!

[Me]
7:40pm
someone who can nv get a fuck
calling me a slut
how pathetic

[Supposed Friend]
7:41pm
yah, u r someone who is always being fucked in ur holes
dun act high-class lar
u r juz a cheap slut waiting to be fucked

[Me]
7:42pm
Im bored
anything else?

[Supposed Friend]
7:42pm
u can't even spell slut properly
how pathetic

[Me]
7:42pm
is that all the insults i can gather from a dimwit human?

[Supposed Friend]
7:42pm
yes

(Oh, he agreed he is dimwitted)

[Me]
7:42pm
Okay now you're done can u fuck off?
you know you're just showing how pathetic u are?

[Supposed Friend]
7:43pm
let me upload some homemade videos of me n gf having sex

[Me]
7:43pm
trying to impersonate someone u can nv be is pathetic and extremely atrocious
HAHAHA
u seriously cannot be any more pathetic than this

[Supposed Friend]
7:44pm
do u noe that the longer u chat with me, the easier i can hack ur acct n get ur pwd?
still wan to continue?
i will make u groan n moan like the slutty bitch that u are
ok, done, got ur email acct n pwd
see u around

[Me]
7:46pm
wadever fucker
dare u to list my password now

[Supposed Friend]
7:47pm
hah, i will go into ur acct n do watever i like
post ur contact details to those pimps looking to sell their gals

[Me]
7:47pm
go on
u dun dare to list it anyway

is offline.

There you go.
He claimed he could obtain my password and account information just by chatting to me.
But when I dared him to list it out,
he shrunk away by using more threatens to cover his previous attempts to scare me.

Yawns.
And sorry for the repeated usage of the word 'Pathetic'.
I couldn't find any other words to describe this person.

I got this friend's number from BFF,
messaged him and he was notified already.
End of story.


Moral of the blog post = never list your personal info in facebook.
Nothing is safe online one lah.
And if you ever log onto fb using outside computers, triple check if you logged out properly.

I was hacked once before, on Friendster,
probably cause I was using friendster on the ITE lab comps and I couldn't be bothered to log out properly.

My profile became sexual soon after zzz.



And oh, you know why I listed the whole conversation out?
Cause BFF said I could just sue him, so here I am blogging about it,
making sure I keep a copy of this conversation online,
and another copy offline.

So there.

Life is a mishmash of colours!

One moment I can feel really down,
certain things can happen and drag me to hell.

Then the next thing I know, I'm up and about,
feeling satisfied with my life.

Dramatic as it seems, probably everyone is experiencing the same thing.


One thing to be happy about,
is that BF and I passed the 1Year6Mths mark~
October was hell for me.
We fought, until we almost broke up.

I cried, pleaded and felt like the world was ending.
Then suddenly I stopped crying and well, I was prepared for my mini world end.
No kidding, I am THAT emotional.

But the fights were... weird.
It started over a small outburst.
Then it blew up, and controlled his emotions.

Up till now, we have no exact idea what controlled him.


I'm just glad I have a special someone who tells me he loves me every time he calls.
And a pair of arms to hold me when the land beneath cracks.





It was Mom's Birthday yesterday!
She refused to get exact candles, so here's the one big candle so you can't guess her age.
XD

We went prawning in the afternoon,
and it turned out to crabbing after.

My mom & BF moved over to the crabs section and started catching crabs instead.
And now we have 4 crabs waiting to be eaten tonight =D

Dinner was Buffet @ Sakura Downtown east!

Selections are very limited, but enough to fill us to the brim.

BF and I were so stuffed,
we took a long walk around downtown east to ease the uneasy tummy lol.

Comparing the photos now,
I guess I still prefer my Pixon when it comes to taking photos:



Here's us, taken with Pixon.



And here's me, taken using Iphone 4.

I looked like a simpson.


And here's the Simpsons family + waiter's shaky hand syndromes.





Oh, and before I end this entry,
We were at the fountain pond area waiting for my brother yesterday.
We were honestly just looking at the fishes (GIANT PACU! Its probably 6KG! lol!)

The security guard kept his eyes on us.
No matter where he goes, he stares at us.

I know he's doing his job la.
Maybe we don't look like a family? (Or we looked like a badass family?)
Maybe BF's prawning rod looked like a potential weapon?
Maybe I looked like I was about to jump into the pond & kidnap the Pacu?

Either way, he's doing his job, but erh... I didn't know we looked that suspicious.

I haven't been updating regularly,
so its pretty okay if my readership drops,
But somehow or rather, I realised through nuffnang's stats of my blog, I still get some view counts each day.

And here are the very random keywords that led them here:


About the girl and girl sucking whatever,
why can't the pervert-with-bad-english just type 'porn'?

Maybe he/she/it wants to be specific.




Top search for another week is Tampines ITE,
which has NOTHING to do with me.

and wow, Siglapian Sex?
If Siglap Sec ever stumbles on my blog, its time you guys take note.
无风不起浪, if there's nothing others know, there wouldn't be such a search.


And fiza webcam?
Fiza's gonna be shocked.

Yes I know rikku is hot.






Conclusion: weirdos are everywhere.

I really wished to talk about happier stuff.

but right now I'm so stuffed up I feel like throwing my temper at anyone possible.

I seriously, really dislike this certain person. He is close to me yes.
But he is soooooo arrogant.
He always thinks he's good enough, likes to correct me and stuff.
But one simple thing I asked as a favor,
he can turn it upside down for me.

I'm the one who is taking the consequences.

I didn't even hear an apology.

F.

I can has nothing to update about. Faaaaail.

Have got nothing to blog about recently.
My emotions were going up up down down up down up down
so my body reacted to it by giving me a 2 days early monthly torture.

Right now, everything's at peace, or so I hope.
My life is revolving around music, fashion, business, work & love.

There are things that I think every single day.
I always end up upset thinking about it.
The thing is, I know I'll be upset but I still do it.

Ironyyyyyyyy.


So to keep this blog slightly alive,
here's some of those things I've mentioned earlier:



My hammie.
It always amuse me when they sleep like that.



Pure vanity led me to dollywink.
If there's anyone who isn't aware, its a brand by Tsubasa!
She has DollyWink, CandyDoll & LIZ LISA under her.

And she's a mum.
I wanna be a pretty mum too.


Love for my new knitted cardigan!
And currently I'm unable to wear that buckle belt cause it'll kill me due to the cramps.
Tsk.

I envy those ladies with no cramps.
Then again, they would have to endure labour pain, so others said.
Hmmmm!



A dress that I gave up on buying at Dorothy perkins.
It was hanging there, the last piece, and my size too.

BUT I gave it up cause I don't think
1) I'll wear it often, its pretty body hugging
2) BF would want me to walk around in it
3) Mum will be happy seeing a slutty daughter

So nope, I didn't buy it.

Lol.


No more la.


Nothing else to blog about.

Oh, i tried putting the full set of eye makeup that day,
double eyelid tape, fake lashes, mascara, eyeliner etc

but on only one side.

Gosh my eye was 1/3 bigger than the other. LOL.


I was entertained by myself, braaaaaaaavo jes.

I'm gonna fall asleep soon.
So to keep myself awake, I decided to do some random meme which HiyuJie tagged me in Facebook,
So that I can save you all the agony of being tagged. (Not like it matters)

Three names I go by:

1. Ruiwen - Old friends (Plus surname for Mr ODL)

2. Jeslene - Most common

3. Wen - Closest friends

Three Jobs I have had in my life:

1. Baker

2. Street Directory Address Checker (like, really)

3. Erh, temporary temperature taker at Heart Centre (High risk, high pay too.)

Three Places I have lived:

1. SG

2. Tampines

3. Erh, in my bf's heart? KNS.

Three Favorite drinks:

1. Hot Tea

2. Iced Tea

3. Roooooot beeeeeeeer (+ float complusory)

Three TV Shows that I watch:

1. Heroes (The korean variety show, not the english series)

2. We Got Married (Nichkhun <3 Victoria <3 SeoHyun<3 Gain <3 )

3. ...Documentaries....?

Three places I have been: *most recent*

1. Erh.... Genting

2. Taiwan...

3. Erh... Amoy food centre for lunch?

Three places I am looking forward to go:

1. Bangkok next year!

2. Rendang Island

3. Taiwan again <3

People that I sms/sms me regularly:

1. BF

2. Tong/Mum (these two sms me on the same frequency one lol)

3. Leaking

Three of my favorite foods:

1. BEEF. ME CARNIVORE!

2. Mum's cooking (gee this is starting to sound like those bio we write during pri sch)

3. Steamboat <3

Three friends I think will respond:

1. No one

2. because I didn't

3. tag any!

Three things I am looking forward to:

1. BF's final bball match this Friday night

2. Mum's birthday

3. Christmas~

Three things that are always by your side:

1. Pixon (poor battered phone it is)

2. Wallet + atm card + cash.

3. My crystal bracelet which mum made.

Three things I always look forward to during weekends:

1. SLP.

2. Spree item arrivals

3. Dinner with BF <3

Three things I always do every morning:

1. 814am - alarm rings - stop the alarm

2. calls BF to wake him up for work

3. Nua 5 mins more if I'm working on the day, if not, nua 1 hour more then BF will call.

Thats it lol.

If something as long as 4 years can do nothing else but hurt in the end,
Anything will.

It hurts to see failed relationships around me.
It kept me pondering, when would mine be ending.
Its truly negative to think that way,
so many times its just a passing thought.

Just cause I don't want it to happen to me.
I want to believe wholeheartedly that this will work.

It will.
It shall.


For that, I'm not gonna leave things to fate.
I'll work for it.

Even though the hurt he gave me scarred me for life,
I'll just cover it up, and hope I'll never see it again.


Jeslene,
you can do it.






PS: I missed talking to Tong =( & Bestie =(

It always takes 2 hands to clap, doesnt it?

How I wished everything would be simple once again.
All those times we've spent is just pure happiness.
And nothing else.

I just want to remember the feeling of being in love.

No hatred.
No anger.
No unhappiness.

Because, to me, all I think of when you came into my mind,
is those days when we laughed, and smiled together.

I have a small heart.
It can contain only you.

Deep inside of me.






Should there be one day...




I'll keep all these within my heart.

Safely locked.

And lovingly remembered.

Birthday + Fishes + Prawns!

Yaaaaay.
I decided to update!

Actually U had this drafted entry for some time already.
Just that some stuff happened.

But since I'm in the mood now, better do it before I get another moodswing (Oh the woes of a woman!)

Latest events first:

I went prawning!
Prawn catches are little, but we managed to catch a giant prawn each.
Probably around 300-400grams each.



I only realised they were holding claws when I was editing the picture.
Lol.


Compared to a normal prawn.
See what I mean now?
OH SHIT.
I FORGOT ABOUT THE LEFT OVER WORMS.
They are in the freezer with my prawns!


...Okay, I took them out already.
But my fishes are sleeping so back they go into the freezer.




Prawn =D


I can has no eyes.




On the train.
Been really moody and tired since I woke up.
Sighs.


Got this in the mail, and its from none other than my best gf <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhn_XXoJudl6a9PoH-b2e3yoOL28TgrcUhDhS8jyujXea33RG5sAnxhn7nxsKJuGxZHonuNxzkwMtFrKy3O7WPskq1jyApzLDT6i7x595xrWHkKJK6PFoqv66Xh7kwoG48lNwUT/s1600/SDC11306.JPG">




Btw I no long hair anymore.
Just snipped the off cause I'm afraid of splitends zzz.


Chalet!




Heros doing the cooking.


Flowers from B =)



This person very tok gong one.



GFs who stayed late, so we took timer pics =D


On my birthday itself:

Had dinner at Xin Wang, same as last year =)




Tong & Kai bought balloon for me!

Its been a week and its still not flattened yet.



I had this awkward smile cause I was on the phone and my face became like that when i tried to smile for the camera.

Major fail.



I miss my long hair!




I wished I could write more.
But my brain auto shut down alrd.

Very sleepy!

So good night loves!