Today, is one day, I feel lonely.

Well.
Sighs.

I have at least 3 people cutting me off before I finish my sentence.
When I just wanted to, you know, ask how is everything.
They cut me off and they well, hung up.

Maybe its just too much work.
Too tired, that's why its possible I misinterpret everything.

But something is really clear,

I am well neglected.
I remember having this feeling a few years back.
That time, I wished I was dead, no one cares anyway.

Today, I wish I radiate my presence to the people around.

Why, why why.
Why must I ask people out, then they will realise, how long we haven't met?


--

I'm fine, I suppose.

PS: Tong, thanks for collecting the cheque for me.

Does this explains what I'm doing during work...?

XD

I'm pretty tired now.

Dreamt of somethings that were rather terrible.

Ghosts...

AND MY SUPERVISOR!

O_O

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Ghost

In general, ghosts symbolizes aspects of yourself that you fear. This may involve a painful memory, guilt, or some repressed thoughts. You may be afraid of death and dying. Alternatively, ghosts are representative of something that is no longer obtainable or within reach. It indicates a feeling of disconnection from life and society. This dream may be a calling for you to move on and abandon your outdated modes of thinking and behavior.

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Move on?

SIGHS.

--

Boss

To see your boss in your dream, represents the bossy or authoritative side of your own personality. Your boss may reveal self-confidence and the assertive aspect of yourself.

It is telling of your issues of control and authority. Alternatively, to see your boss in your dream may indicate your over-involvement or obsession with your work.
Negatively, the boss in your dream may symbolize your limitations and lack of freedom/originality.

To dream that you are afraid of your boss, indicates your fear of authority. You may feel that someone else is running your life or dictating what you can and can not do.

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THAT IS TRUE !

HAHAHAHA!

Sick.

I even dreamt of teppenyaki lor.

--

I cried till my balls fell out.

EYEballs, perverts.
Cause I watched ISWAK2's finale.

AHHH!

Romance is in my blood, man man man.

Now my eyelid has FOUR flaps!

So that means I have double-double eyelid.

HAHAHA.

...

Sorry, not funny, I know.

Pretty busy week, or perhaps even month.

Alot of activities lined up.

Work, Social, Fun, Serious.

--

Been thinking about how people look at themselves.

Self-esteem kills, agreed Kai Lin.

Looks, the key too all agony and pride.

But really, why look down on yourself?

It doesn't change what you are now, anyway.

But look at it the other way,

You hold some of those confidence,

and you can change how you look,

at least u'll shine.

I guess?

Lol.

--

I'm HUNGRY.

Yet I'm broke.

Work really does suck when you're hungry and lunch is 1 hour far far far away.

*Grumbles*

Ordinary Sunday.
Totally slacking at home.


Reunited Ms OL & Her Guitar.

And counted how many pairs of heels I wear on a regular basis.
(Which means I have more pairs of heels & Wedges hidden in the storeroom)

and.....

Hmm...

When is my stupid pay coming =(

I

am...

Restless.

Snores.

Out with Hui, Cally, SiewChoo, Tong.
Met up with sellers (which means my items are collected, woohoo~)
And saw my KEH Ling at Somerset station.

Shopped around and the FREAKING SUN!
SO HOT LAH!
Almost died in the flea market.
I was in a daze, it was that bad.
I think I could almost faint.

Very very lazy to write everything in detail.
Conclusion, I'm very happy to meet up with the girls =)

Pictures!


I did not put a FRUIT CD into the comp.
SERIOUS!
You know what is EAT FRUIT?
THE SONG WAS PEI WO KAN RI CHU BY CAI CHUN JIA!
HAHAHAHAHA!

And you see banana high noon?
And MEAT GRINDER?
MEAT GRINDER IS DOU JIANG YOU TIAO!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

And then Medicine Man is Ah Du's jian chi dao di!
AND SUGAR LADY IS LIAN AI DA REN!
WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT CD?

HAHAHAHAHHA!




Two pictures of the same location on different weathers.


Workworkwork.
Must camwhore too.
I am vain lah.

Pics of today!


Super distorted HUIHUI!
She has a rare talent! She can DISTORT her feature beyond recognition!




Needless for captions.
LOL.

Coming public holiday, going out with mah family =)))

Hmm.
Nothing much.


Slpy.

AHHHH.

Freaking Latitude folder is moving so so so so slowly,
That I decided to come onto blogger and complain.
=P

Just a lazy way to update my blog.


Ignore previous entries sweeties, nothing's wrong.
Just that he drives me crazy and I'm driven crazy.


I think I need a new eyecandy.
There's none in my building, in my office or other departments.
(Maybe its juz cause I haven't explored the rest of the building =\ )


No distractions, that meant.
Sighs.


I'm not feeling emo lah.
Just.... Somehow I still think about it.
Though I'm over it, butI'm yet to be over it.

Just something little can trigger all thoughts.
That is hateful alrights, espcially when you have to wait desperately for something to load on ur company computer and you have NOTHING else to do.


GAAAAH...



Jelly Lee, you must zheng zuo...



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I-I-I...
I spent alot online.

I now have....


Dress & Top from spree...
Hair curler from Spree...
Mascara from Drugstore...
A pair of heels from GoJane...
A VOV blusher...
A vintage bag...

Like, this bag lor.

And the black one...

ALL WAITING FOR ME~

LOL.

This month my spending were online shopping debts.
Will be collecting the heels, blusher and bag from sellers this saturday.
That will mark the end of my shopping for that day =P
No choice.

My pay comes again next thursday.
WHOOPEEE.




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Dinner later in the evening with Jie, Kailin and Soonwai.
Don't know if Yan will be joining us.

ZI CA WAN SUI!

=DDD

我觉得

看着你 我会疯掉

想着你 我会疯掉

读了你写的东西 我会想死掉


你

活活折磨人啊

我都快被病疯了

雪上加霜啊你


啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~

天啊。

Save me 啦！


--

Blogger hates me, no pictures can be uploaded =\

I'm attached!
So happy!

He's my one and only now!
He makes me smile, he makes my day bright.
















My bf and I =D

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!





Ey, sorry! Don't surf away from my blog leh!
There's a LOOOOOOOONG entry ahead!


Yups!
I went to the ZOOOO~
And I'm willing to go again soon! =)
I think I'm a zoo addict.

Was there with Kai Lin and Yan.
It was a happy day for me.
Loads of laughter.

Initially Kai Lin was supposed to meet her friends for a birthday celebration.
But they arrived too late and decided to go for night safari.
Since we were already in the zoo, no point going to night safari.
$$$ eh.

So~
We started the day by taking a traaaaaaain~ to Ang Mo Kio.
After I gave up my seat for a lady, she started talking to us.
Say we are 'ren cai' and that what we should expect in life.
She got off in Bugis and asked for our names saying "I will remember you."

So...
Soo....
Don't know leh.


Reached Ang Mo Kio rather quickly (since we were crapping along the way, the journey was pretty fast)
I had the urge to get off at Bishan. LOL. (Ms Lee, my cert leh?!)

We took the shuttle bus to zoo and they have this welcome thing, where they will take pictures of every tourist to the Zoo.
And Yan wanted to take a picture with the parrot.
One of the zoo staff asked: "Hi Ladies! Where are you from?"
Yan: "Singaporeee~"
Staff: "Oh, I'm from Singapore too! =D"

....
Right.

Let pictures talk!


While waiting for shuttle bus...


My second husband muahahahah~


Exactly what are you looking at?


Mr Osman's Wushu girl.
I think more like Jeslene's siao char bo.


Kangarooooo~
SO CUTE LAH!
And they are so used to humans!
Rough fur though.
Btw, you are supposed to ignore my fats and pay attention to the Kangaroo.



I think if Yan really drove the car, today would be my death anni.
You ain't supposed to LOOK BACK when you're driving!


Had some really close encounters with animals.
Kailin and Yan are totally terrified when I tried to drag them into this experience trail where animals can roam freely.

Its named "Scaly Experience"
Yan: I DON'T WANT! WHAT IF GOT SNAKE!
Kai Lin: AHHHHHHH.
Me: NO SNAKES LAH! Only Iguanas and monkeys and frogs and turtles lah!

Snakes nia what!
But yan told me she saw this species of snake roaming in the mangrove swarms in Pasir Ris.
Woo hoo.


I think its not too photogenic lah.
Its cuter in real.


I KILLED ALL THE LIONS!

...
Nice afternoon for sleeping.


It has that "huh, what?" look.


Warthogs are relatives with Pigs.
Pigs = Jeslene.
So Warthogs = Jeslene's relative.



Bat looks at watermelon.
Watermelon looks back.

"Hey fruit!"
"Hey what hey lah."



Now this!
It was DARN near me!
Like, 5cm away.
Super cute =D
The eyes shine~

Mummy loves this pic.
Is it cause her daughter resemble it?


And finally, Hiyu Jie's favourite...




White tigers~
So cuteeeeeee!


More pictures will be up soon, after Yan sends me her photos!
And I have loads more unedited.

Half asleep now.
Better go shower and then relax =D

I... I.. I.. I...~
Kan wo yi zhi du xiu~

Oh wait, no.
Sorry too much Show Luo songs today lol.
Oie, I'm trying to crack a joke la, can?!

Anyway.
Haven't been blogging.
*actually it wasn't too long since I've blogged anyway*
Being very lazy and tired...

But Payday today =D

Got myself a top, a wallet (My old one is... old.), a clip and a bodyshop lip butter (which smells darn good)
And got Adeline's lil girl a pink suit. Super cute can!
And Online shopped three tops and a mascara.
I am stopping my shopping right there.
If i can resist that is.
Surprisingly I can still manage my finance and savings despite spending this much.
Woohoo.
Its not even the end of the month where I will get my second pay lo.

Lalala!





Gloomy gloomy skies...

Tidbits: Essential for admin assistants like Jeslene Lee.

Yes, this is HOW MUCH I did today.
Have to move all of these documents and drawings out from the project room and then sort them.

I did it all by myself can.
From moving to sorting to archiving.
There's alot more to do tomorrow.
I feel like a construction worker.


All the drawings are in neat and labelled boxes!
Super heavy boxes.
Now I feel sure tired.

Food saved me though.
Turns out Tanjong Pagar has loads of good food.
=D

Hak Gaos are sour tho. =\
I miss victor's.

--

I think its reall easy to be happy these days.
I don't know why but the only thing that depressed me was my grandmother's departure.

(I still miss her loads)

But there's nothing else to bring my mood down.
I can be tired, but I won't get upset over it.
Its good.

Its so easy to be happy, really.
I can stare at the sky and feel happy.
I can stare at my plushie and feel happy (esp when I see Caramel =) )
I can get irritated, but still stay happy.

Just look around you, surely there is at least ONE reason for you to smile.
Like, you know, your bed is waiting for you to sleep on it.
That is such a blessing lor!

--

To mr. last supper... I am still stalked.
Everyday.

该忘了你对不对- 周蕙

再见了就不能倔强

该忘了你对不对

无怨无悔 把一切留给纪念

受过沉默的创伤

渐渐就习惯不再想

记忆会为我收藏

那些美丽时光

为爱付出过的力量

带着爱去寻找 幸福的希望

--

I dreamt of you.
Something so realistic.
But its over now.

--

After lunch hour = SLEEPY.
1 hour 30mins more, go go Jelly Lee!~

有些时候，思念真的很玄。

明知不该想，却又阻止不了。

注定吗？

不知道。若真的是注定then算了咯。

九个月了。

该生了。哈哈。

没人了解我写什么，无所谓。

我自己明白。Wa ka ki zai!

喂。

喂喂。

你很喜欢写些不三不四的东西哦。

告诉你，我看到了。

明白了。了解了。

--

Ignore me =D

--

People, please stop googling my full name, my blog title and all to search for me can.

APPEAR LEH!

Nuffnang hates me.

So long le, no ads.

finnnnnnnnnnnne.

I need some motivation-s.
I think I need to find them myself.
The only current motivation I have is people.
People who I love and all.



Aiya.
Help.

Jelly....
Jelly is feeling jelly.



I was at bugis with Kailin and Jie yesterday night.
And I got myself some things, and is currently well in love with them.
Like, this pair of wedges!

Haha, it has a heart shape hole on its wedge!
Tong say it looked like I'm going for world war 4, cause it looks like steel.
Its painted wood, really.
I fell in love with it, first sight.
Well, vanity~ vanity!
And a lovable price, $16.90 =D

...
K lah, enough shopping crap.

And today was out with tong!
Initially was heading for Plaza Sing.
But lazy jelly.
So, tampines.
Sorry ah tong.......... =\

Walk walk walked.
Nothing special acty.
I miss tong =D

Just thought it looked pretty ... banner-able.
So erh...
You know la, the power of Jelyl and photoshop HAHAHA.


Ang tuuuuuu kuey.
My mummy actually entertained me when I used Ang Tu Kuey to talk to her.
She replied to all my ang tu kuey words.
I think my mum is so used to me being crappy.
Mummy will always be mummy.


Peeps please bear with me when I declare my love for everyone okay.
I wanna declare before anything happens.
So if I become like a hua chi, just accept lah =P

Back to work, and it still feels unreal.
My head was in the clouds, trying hard to regain my sanity.
But days went by and I'm doing fine.
=)


Adeline's tummy got bigger, woo hoo.
Her baby must be one healthy lil sweetheart!
TJ is leaving the company soon, no more soft lil "uh huhs" to my good mornings.
Coping fine with work, everything was on track and all...

Had lunch with Hiyu Jie for the past 2 days.
Food food food and Lunch Lunch Lunch was the only thing I anticipate for the whole day, other than knocking off work of course.

KFC Delivery tomorrow!
My office ppl want de, not me alrights!


Long lost causal camwhoring.


JIE is that your level?!
(Anyway i really went to count, no its not where you're located LOL!)

My KEH-ling told me to kiss her.
Oh course i won't dirty her purity =D
Take picture nia, don't so serious lah~

AND MY EYE BAGS.
Can hold 2 oranges inside liao lo.

Seriously, am I balding?

O_O

--

Planning activities for friday and the weekends!
Rest rest rest!
FRIDAY~
I'm coooooooooming!

--

My cousin said he dreamt of my popo.
He said she was telling him to eat porridge, and she was smiling.

Please let that be true.

AND! KNS LAH!
You didn't attend the funeral and now you're calling us non-stop to ask about THE HOUSE AND HER INHERITANCES!?

ARGH!

Everything is over but not over, if u know what I mean,
still have 49 days to go through.
It still seemed unbelievable.
It felt like I will still hear her voice through my phone, asking me how I was.
And I still miss her badly.

Hopefully she is doing well.

Thanks to all my friends who came down and paid respects to my grandmother.
Really, thank you.
Kailin, Yan, Adrian, Tong, Maryanne, Carrie, Sin, Hiyujie, Hun, JengLoon.
Esp Jeng Loon who came down twice and stayed to help with things.
And thanks to all who asked about me during this difficult time.

And thanks for all the concern showered, all the "Jes are you okay? Your eyes swell until..."
Yes I'm fine.
=)

Heading by Bugis still hurts.
Sighs.

The place where she is resting in peace is at guang ming shan

(which i kept mistaking it as YANG ming shan, whats with Taiwan and I...)

Loads of turtles.

She chose the place herself.

And her best friend dreamt of her waving at her at the particular place.

So...

--

Didn't head to Lunar cause of the funeral.

Heard somethings happened and I was on the phone with Boo as Ting performed.

Goodness, goosebumps even on the phone...

And hello, I sorta panicked for you guys when you all told me 4 glasses became 4 jugs.

4 jugs can!

$92...

Then I counted la, if one glass without 1 for 1 is 12bucks...

Then 5 glasses is like $70 liao.

So instead of $35 with one for one you guys were supposed to pay for 5 glasses, you guys saved like 10bucks.

Hear me?

LOL.

So basically they told HPT to go there for WATCHING NIA?

WHYWHYWHY can't I be there to watch him sing.

I think I am darn suay lah.

Not fated, last week I there he not there, this week he there I not there.

But hor.

Eerie.

TW and GX, all same same.

A lil birdie told me he's coming over.

Oh freak.

I'm SCARED.

--

work tomorrow.

Pretty restless still.

HAIS!

But I rested enough today and I had like 12hours of slp from 6pm last evening till 830am this morning.

And then I went shopping with Yan, tong and anne.

I bought quite alot of things, for work and all.

AND I REALISED!

ALL ARE IN BLLLLAAAAAAACK!?

=.=

--

Right.

Bb!

Im fine.
The fact finally sank in.
And I've sorta accepted it.
Still upset, nevertheless.
She seemed like she was just sleeping.
Just like when she came my house and took a nap.

I miss her terribly.
She bought me a bag for my birthday and told me to collect it soon.
Just three days ago.
My birthday is in September.
And she got it so early.
Somehow it sorta made sense now.
Perhaps she knew it unconciously.

My mum passed me the bag yesterday when we were at her place.
I couldn't help myself and I cried really hard.
The bag was everything I would like.
Staring at the chair she past away on,
I felt really heartbroken.

I miss her so so much.
She loves me alot.
I love her alot too.

Rest in peace, popo.
Like I told you yesterday

我会努力唱出一个能让你骄傲的成绩。

--

Kai and Yan, thanks for coming down yesterday.
Especially when one is so tired out because of work, and I'm not around to help.
And the other got so frightened by me =P


=)

please be okay, please.
God, i beg of you, please.

blogging @ work..
Lunch soon!
Collegues do bread, bread feasting!

Hungry!

BLOGGING @ WORK!
SHHHH =P

Ya know what is this?

LU ROU RICE.

LU ROU FAN!

...

My lunch.

Had it with my collegues.

Song of the day:

Zui chang de dian ying aka the longest movie by Jay Chou.

You know why?

Kai Lin sang in the morning 再给我两分钟~！

鲁肉饭oh my lunchie lunchie，再给我两分钟, I'm coming！

赶工，Wa lao so many mails for what! 再给我两分钟！要好了！

回家，怎么还有两分钟？

...

Really, the last hour before heading home was nightmare.

RUSH..................

...

I think shopping is impossible now, especially after work.

Tong, heeeeelp!

Xinyun, heeeeelp!

My daughters! HEEEEEEEEELP!

Mummy is tye-yot.

But today was better.

Cause we know what to do.

Heng.